A few days late, but better late than never, right? For me, 2014 was definitely a year of growth.There were some really good times, and also some pretty bad times, but those are all a part of growing up I suppose. I can't quite remember the last time I made New Year resolutions, other than the generic resolutions the mass population makes of "going to the gym more, eating healthier, not being so lazy, etc." but I've had some time to myself the last few days, and wanted to put some of my thoughts in writing.
To start, I've never been an open person, as in, I'm not one to share my thoughts and emotions or 'how I'm really feeling' to anyone. I'm typically one to keep them bottled up inside me, and then vent to one of my very close (those are very few) friends, whom I'm forever grateful for. Being in the PR/ Social Media field, you'd think I'd communicate my feelings a lot more than I do/ should, but that's far from true. I'm a very private person. Although I share what I wear on this blog, and my day-to-day on my Instagram, you don't see anything but the good - because who really wants to see photos of unappetizing meals, a messy desk, and a terrible selfie after a long day of work? Not me. Anyway, let's start here. On the very top of my resolutions is to be more open about my feelings.
Communicate my real feelings:I won't be complaining/ venting too much here on the blog, but it's quite refreshing when bloggers do "keep it real" because no one's life is perfect. It's so easy to curate that perfect life on social media with the help of perfect lighting, a new accessory & great angles, but let's be real, life isn't always so pretty. This is more for me to be able to open up to my friends & family, instead of always saying "I'm great, how are you?" Because my life isn't always great. Vulnerability is a scary thought. #yikes.
Be more responsible with my finances:
This year was the first year in my life that I'm 100% financially independent from my parents (it only took me 25 years .... love you mom&dad!), and I'm proud to be able to say that I can pay for my own rent and all, but damn you credit card (such a love/hate relationship). Also, I want to pay off all of my student loans by the time I'm 30 (so I guess I have until 2019 for this one) + have no credit card debt. So this means no impulse purchases... because I can fall real hard for a luxe handbag and a pretty pair of shoes.
Spend more time with my family:
In 2014, I can probably count on one hand the number of times I went home to see my parents. Living in NYC, and my parent's in Philly, the travel isn't that far - seriously, only 2 hours, and yet I've probably gone home about 5 times this last year. Not to say that I don't talk to them everyday because I text my mom everyday (she's my best friend) and we talk on the phone multiple times a week. But seeing them in person and spending time with them is different. As I've gotten older, I've really started to appreciate and cherish the times I get to spend with my parents and I want to do it more often.
Stop comparing myself with others:
Um maybe I need to deactivate Facebook and delete my Instagram account (#justkidding) but seriously, it's hard not to compare yourself to others when everyone's life is on public display. It seems as though ALL of my girlfriends are in some serious relationships/ getting engaged, where as I'm still single. And for awhile I was okay with being single, but recently I've started to feel more pressure to find a SO. And don't get me wrong, I've done my share of dating, but none felt organic - there were some not-so-great dates, but also some good ones, but there just wasn't any chemistry. And I'm not ready to settle just yet.
Besides boys + dating, it's hard not to compare myself to other bloggers, instagrammers, people of the internet, etc. We all do it, and know it's not healthy, but damn you IG, justkidding, I love you. So this year, I want to really focus on myself, and my personal goals without being blinded by what others are doing/ have achieved, because your time will come.
As simple as that & finally to make the move from Blogger to Wordpress.
Red, oversized turtleneck // (old) Zara tartan trousers // (old) Zara pumps // Prada Sunnies // Shanaz Designs purse
Hope everyone had a great holiday weekend/ break and are having a wonderful start to 2015. I want to hear about your resolutions too! <3